urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mar_gie mar_gie mar_gie 2005-12-20T02:48:30Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mar_gie:3809 2005-12-20T02:48:30Z 2005-12-20T02:48:30Z you killed me. i hope you re happy and satisfied with your TV..<br />when you remember me remember me dead..A decomposing corps thAt s all i am now... <br /><br />you left me in pieces <br />and i cant help but bleed myself<br />of the pain you ve caused within me. <br /><br />it hurts so much <br />that even deeper wounds <br />cannot let enOugh blood flow <br />to take the pain away<br /><br />i m shouting out<br />pls have pity on me <br />my eyes are dry <br />but stil i squint and i cry<br /><br />i dreamt of you standing and i hug you from behind<br />i inhale and i smell you i cried "dont leave" <br />you said you wont but i wake up and see you did <br />i die again <br /><br />i try to bang my head against the headboard so maybe God will be nice<br />maybe ?God will make it easy and bring me to sleep so i can see you again <br />and maybe this time, he wont wake me up and you ll be always with me <br />my head starts to ache i feel drained i know i m dying <br /><br />i know i m dying but my eyes are open <br />i m being eaten from the inside out <br />how can you leave me for things that i cant even explain <br /><br />you left my soul to rot urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mar_gie:3487 2005-11-21T14:04:58Z 2005-11-21T14:04:58Z suicide <br /><br />so many lives have been wasted away <br />as intoxication begins to brew their day<br />I wonder what i can do just to make them know <br />the pain in their hearts will never cease to grow<br />until they learn to give up this feeling <br />until they cease this pathetic killing<br /><br />madami kayong nasasaktan sa mga ginagawa nyo...<br />i hope you all know that whatever you do to youself your loved ones feel it too urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mar_gie:2998 2005-10-30T12:06:25Z 2005-10-30T12:06:25Z bla :) <br /><br />well some things nagiging flop but it all turns out for the best! whee my fc initiation peepoll!!! lets get one thing straighttt!! :p i dint lose your stuff okii???:p whaah its all part of itt!!! dont kill me!! :p <br /><br />patttyy pakuha nlng sa classrum ko or sumthn ung watch haha nahanap ko na! :p TY much! <br /><br />wahaha la lng whee gaing ng grp ko! *clap clap clap* sOwee sobra di ako nakadala ng camm :( pero la lng you guys rocckkk whee!! :p hehe swear! :) <br /><br />anywHo welcome FC peeps! :&gt; welcome to the FC family! :) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mar_gie:2601 2005-10-30T02:20:03Z 2005-10-30T02:20:03Z hey i m alive again! :p haha grabe tagal na ako sobra di nagsusulat dito wahaha :p kakaiba oh well :p today was fun :) haha and after ng 1 week downer of shitss na nangyayari. well everything turned our to be ok :) i mean.. hell i love my friends and la lng.. i love you!! you know who you guys are! thanks tlga! whee ito sinend sakin ng isang FFL (friend for life) kO..i send it bacK to all you!! (gnibean kri Cla janz kiki deshwi muymuy tits dms babs kim jim lotte pabs lyshy berniesoulmate mytheonebebot pammy Zo ickywicky kaReN dami pa kau! you know who you are!! this is all for you! thanks for always bein there! my fC family and fiDelity! wahahaha ano speech na ba??? jsut wanna tell you i appriciate you so much!love yOu so much!!!! dunt know what i would do without you guys! LUV YOU MUCH! <br /><br />***i ll always be thankful that God made us meet..i may never know why or how..but i know, here in my heart you'll always be one of the reasons why i ll keep on believing that God want me to be happy :) <br /><br />and i mean this guys! :) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mar_gie:2528 2005-03-15T08:12:36Z 2005-03-15T08:12:36Z i went today... sa mtq.. checked out things.. <br />i didnt pass<br />my blooddy heart broke down into shattered pieces that almost looked like powder<br />i scroll down again and my name just wasnt there<br />i gave it my all..<br />i gave it my all..<br /><br />other names were there.. why wasnt mine? <br />i gave it my all.. <br />i know you can see that too.. <br />i kept wishing for somone to wake me up <br />it seemed that my life and all that i have believed in just wasnt right <br />and i jsut hope to God <br />He d give me that strength <br /><br />i gathered up my powdered heart and dagged myself to continious disbelief of what my eyes saw<br />and struggled to peice it back together but the more i try the more it brittles <br />and even the wind takes some of it leaving me with desperation <br />and empty hands.. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mar_gie:2048 2005-03-13T11:39:33Z 2005-03-13T11:39:33Z yellowcard I wish for a lot of things <br />Though mostly tranquility <br />Of my mind<br />Never ending rest <br />For love is too strong<br />It will drive you mad<br />For no pain can surpass this love<br />Maybe because this love is pain<br />Greatest of its kind<br />As roots hold tight to the ground <br />As winds sweep their leaves away<br />There is no point: inevitability<br />Though oddly, we fight anyway<br /><br />Wind always passes by <br />And I cannot do anything<br />But watch its wings <br />It seems to pass through all of me<br />the leech of life<br />And take some of me with it<br />But always leaves a few things behind <br />And I shrug and stare away once more <br />And surprisingly find parts of my spirit gone <br />But replaced by <br />Thoughts of you that were never there before<br /><br />sorry sayang ba space? hehe... just sabog and wanted to write so there.. <br />i miss feeling. <br />i miss you guys.... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mar_gie:1854 2005-01-13T13:53:25Z 2005-01-13T13:53:25Z silence hm.. someone really hurt me today. <br />sabi daw ung skills ko sa pagpapatawa ay nangiinsulto. <br />made me cry. gay ba? <br />hy... ren, u know what i mean.. la lng shet.. i m really sorry if i fail you.. <br />and i m really scared i will. <br />tapos un nga cnabe pa toh sakin ng someone.... FUDGE! solid! :(<br />:( i dont want to fail you.. maslalo na ikaw. and c Lord...<br />sobrang daming times na ktia na fail and i surely dont wanna do it again :( love you ren!<br /> i ll do my besT. :(<br />love yah ren. thanks for ALWAYS having faith in me. <br />your one of those who believed in me when NO ONE else has. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mar_gie:1669 2004-12-03T01:56:58Z 2004-12-03T01:56:58Z How come this LOVE IS CHASTE that in it I find so much perfection? The life I live I cannot see this as real but it is. I breathe as though I have new life and hearts race as if I would fall a hundred feet! Just a glance, my words scramble and my mouth to dry. HOLD ON MARJ! This will be quite a drop... <br /><br />waHhhHHHhhH!! does love from a photograph exsist? from some scrambled words that someone put together?? doesn't writing reveal a part of the soul and being of the writer??? i have fallen for that part!!! I have fallen for a verse! <br /><br />Call me pathetic and thoroughly naive but i think that s the beauty of it!! nOt caring with the immaturity that one holds! isn't that what makes chinldren so special??? <br /><br />if only i can shout to the world!!! the beauty of the words you speak i shall sing to the heavens of your love for otherS! but sadly your love not onto me my dear!!:( but heck i still sing for your love surpasses!WAHH!! even though jealusy runs through my vains i care not! <br /><br />i still sing! <br /><br />i love you!!! wahahah :p <br /><br />i think i m not sane... hm... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mar_gie:1346 2004-03-03T14:21:53Z 2004-03-05T10:22:42Z harder to breathe - maroon 5 My hand alive and breathing <br />held the pencil in my grip<br />Faster than my heart beating <br />it wrote of my silent trip<br />Alone and autistic<br />i feel tears push through<br />i think of things pathetic <br />i think of you<br />I feel my fingers lift a blade<br />with no concience, blood arises<br />a prayer to Death<br />Would i pay his deadly prices?<br />Or can i somehow slip away<br />like no one else has<br />or shall i perish in the same way, <br />and endure 'til eternity pass<br />The pain in me only nourished<br />the guilt in me only fed<br />Is this forever my fate<br />or can angels of heaven take me instead <br />I m sorry Loves<br />I have failed you again <br />back to dead doves <br />that i can never regain <br />the beauty of you <br />i cannot explain<br />only as birds of white<br />as their purity is certain <br />your trust i have slaughtered <br />barbarric with haste and rage<br />and i apologise <br />for it semms after all, i am no sage<br />Though you are love; reason and purpose<br />if pardon from me you accept as i repent <br />and heavens unlock their gates <br />i no longer seek contentment<br /><br />SUMMARY: Sorry urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mar_gie:881 2004-02-25T13:42:54Z 2004-02-25T13:42:54Z cool 1st entry ko :p hm.. la lang. :p i guess coz i m really bored :p la lang :p and i remembered un nga ung pagkaperfect ng valentines ko and pagka super 'making sense' ung life ko now :p and.. hm.. i certainly couldnt ask for more :P whoever will read my journal.. right now.. if sino man nagwawaste ng time niya listening or reading to the babble i m making... i know its either you really bored and got nothing to do or your a real good friend of mine pero whichever you are...(thanks na din ;p) <br /><br />haha dude.. cease the moment. you'll realize how gifted and lucky you are :p despite all the shit raining on you and you feel that you stink and things cant possibly go worse, think again. de jowk :p <br /><br />look around you lng :p <br /><br />putcha dami nagmamahal sau noh! :p <br /><br />dont snob them! :p wag kang tatanga tanga katulad ko before! :p <br /><br />To REn, desh, Gni, krikitori, Clangie, Val.. everyone i love, you know who you are ... sorry dati patanga tanga ako!!! i love you guys!! <br />and to you know who you are.. i ll keep fighting for you! for obvious reasons :) <br />Luv yah! :P thanks for always being there and keeping me alive guys!!! :) <br /><br />if ever, to you, the people i love, you feel that your worthless.. think again :) <br />your keeping marj alive :) always. :) <br /> <br /><br />song: couldn't ask for more